The Mind's Evening Perusal by BellaReneeBlue, literature
Literature
The Mind's Evening Perusal
The feelings always roll in at the dead of night, when my eyes should be shut tight.
Though now they're stuck open, weary and dreary.
My Mind won't think Right.
It peruses the deepest of my emotions, choosing and abusing, the things at which I am Weakest.
And I wonder if they'll stay open long enough to see Light.
So we all sit and play this game,
Its always the same but never has a name,
We kick and fuss, and scream and shout,
And in the end it never turns out.
So we kick and fuss, and throw ourselves about,
Like children over toys, or teenage girls over boys.
And all for what? And what all for?
This is the same game that never has a name.
But we'll play it til we're all tired out upon the floor.
The end will come and no one will have won.
Some will smirk, and others will pout.
But when all's said and all's done,
We'll all be losers, so I guess we'll all be number one.
This is the game that's always the same, it has no name, and has no aim.
Every Gear for Itself by BellaReneeBlue, literature
Literature
Every Gear for Itself
Has everyone forgotten?
That business doesn't get by on being rotten?
Or was it lost long ago,
What mama had taught?
To be kind, and what not.
What mess we're all making,
While we're too busy hating.
And do you think you could say please?
Rather than roll your eyes at me.
Demanding Respect, and giving none back.
Do you really expect things like that?
But here comes the flack,
For reflecting your attack.
Oh Me, Oh my.
How does this world get by,
When all its gears have gone awry.
When we're using one another as stepping stones,
crumbling each other beneath our feet,
Do we not see how little we reach?
Or is it no longer about what we a
The moonlight trickles over the town, bulbs bursting all around.
The artificial lights wash from the dark night, and a hush crashes down.
They tiptoe out, wandering about on their own two feet,
Such a sight they never did see, their eyes lifting high to the star ridden sky,
Their mouths unable to speak,
What once was hidden, glaringly evident now,
Intrigue set aflame with wonder in their hearts,
Over how many twinkles we hide in our downtrodden souls,
Wearied from the fabricated chase of satisfaction, the societal race of deception.
Believing we were whole,
The filament snaps with a crack,
We can't look back,
Amazed at all we'v
Escape, My Butterfly by BellaReneeBlue, literature
Literature
Escape, My Butterfly
She twists, she turns, She yearns..
Her wings fill with blood, pumping through her veins like lightning,
They press against her silky encapturement, unable to free her with their
delicate nature..
And so she waits for the wind to bring along some tool of nature to sever her
from her prison..
Frustration causing her to squirm, pulsing against the walls and daring the
inevitable to arrive...
Freedom is so near, my butterfly..
Soon your wings will taste the night sky, shimmer in the moonlight, as you rest
along a petal's dew covered surface...
And you will breathe the night air with a sigh of relief...
Your heart will soar with the r
From the balcony, there lies a sunset with an orange hue. He sits and waits,
for something he's yet to discover. Ash falls, carried off by the wind.He
takes a puff again.
"When will this end?" the raspy whisper slips past his lips.
Moments pass, nay, hours. The hue glows bright before slipping out of view
and giving way to the blue sky, void of clouds. The sun bears down, hot upon
his skin. He takes a puff again.
"When will this end?" the raspy whisper slips past his lips.
The click of the door is familiar. An afternoon visit from a daughter grown
cold long ago from the absence of a working father. Crinkles her nose,
disdain i
I see the glimmer in your eyes,
Where all your hope lies.
Basking in plain view,
for those who look at you.
They don't see what I see,
They look in all the wrong places.
Never bothered to look you in the eye,
and discover what you disguise.
What fools they were,
What luck we're not.
They'd have your head,
I'll have your heart.
So we all sit and play this game,
Its always the same but never has a name,
We kick and fuss, and scream and shout,
And in the end it never turns out.
So we kick and fuss, and throw ourselves about,
Like children over toys, or teenage girls over boys.
And all for what? And what all for?
This is the same game that never has a name.
But we'll play it til we're all tired out upon the floor.
The end will come and no one will have won.
Some will smirk, and others will pout.
But when all's said and all's done,
We'll all be losers, so I guess we'll all be number one.
This is the game that's always the same, it has no name, and has no aim.
Every Gear for Itself by BellaReneeBlue, literature
Literature
Every Gear for Itself
Has everyone forgotten?
That business doesn't get by on being rotten?
Or was it lost long ago,
What mama had taught?
To be kind, and what not.
What mess we're all making,
While we're too busy hating.
And do you think you could say please?
Rather than roll your eyes at me.
Demanding Respect, and giving none back.
Do you really expect things like that?
But here comes the flack,
For reflecting your attack.
Oh Me, Oh my.
How does this world get by,
When all its gears have gone awry.
When we're using one another as stepping stones,
crumbling each other beneath our feet,
Do we not see how little we reach?
Or is it no longer about what we a
The moonlight trickles over the town, bulbs bursting all around.
The artificial lights wash from the dark night, and a hush crashes down.
They tiptoe out, wandering about on their own two feet,
Such a sight they never did see, their eyes lifting high to the star ridden sky,
Their mouths unable to speak,
What once was hidden, glaringly evident now,
Intrigue set aflame with wonder in their hearts,
Over how many twinkles we hide in our downtrodden souls,
Wearied from the fabricated chase of satisfaction, the societal race of deception.
Believing we were whole,
The filament snaps with a crack,
We can't look back,
Amazed at all we'v
Escape, My Butterfly by BellaReneeBlue, literature
Literature
Escape, My Butterfly
She twists, she turns, She yearns..
Her wings fill with blood, pumping through her veins like lightning,
They press against her silky encapturement, unable to free her with their
delicate nature..
And so she waits for the wind to bring along some tool of nature to sever her
from her prison..
Frustration causing her to squirm, pulsing against the walls and daring the
inevitable to arrive...
Freedom is so near, my butterfly..
Soon your wings will taste the night sky, shimmer in the moonlight, as you rest
along a petal's dew covered surface...
And you will breathe the night air with a sigh of relief...
Your heart will soar with the r
From the balcony, there lies a sunset with an orange hue. He sits and waits,
for something he's yet to discover. Ash falls, carried off by the wind.He
takes a puff again.
"When will this end?" the raspy whisper slips past his lips.
Moments pass, nay, hours. The hue glows bright before slipping out of view
and giving way to the blue sky, void of clouds. The sun bears down, hot upon
his skin. He takes a puff again.
"When will this end?" the raspy whisper slips past his lips.
The click of the door is familiar. An afternoon visit from a daughter grown
cold long ago from the absence of a working father. Crinkles her nose,
disdain i
I see the glimmer in your eyes,
Where all your hope lies.
Basking in plain view,
for those who look at you.
They don't see what I see,
They look in all the wrong places.
Never bothered to look you in the eye,
and discover what you disguise.
What fools they were,
What luck we're not.
They'd have your head,
I'll have your heart.
Take a bow,
The floor's yours now,
Don't shed a tear,
You've made it here.
Now the crowd looks upon the stage,
They're waiting for you to play.
You stand there shivering,
Right down to your toes.
Looking down on them,
A pretty blush across your nose.
You open your mouth,
Letting the words fall out.
A silence falls across the crowd,
Looking back at you, oh-so-proud.
Strumming your guitar,
Feeling like a star,
Playing for the crowd,
In your backyard. :)
As The Clock Passes 4:00 AM
You're so ugly while you sleep,
Snot running from your nose, mixing
With saliva from the corner of your mouth.
Being sick effects your head as you lie
In bed muttering about sex
With fireflies. I think you mean the candlelit
Night on our Anniversary, hot and sweaty.
You're still so ugly while you sleep,
Hair ting-tangling all over me,
Breath that could be heard
In East Asia, toes touching toes like ice
On a cold winter day. I just want some fucking
Sleep! All this irritation, and yet somehow, just somehow,
I still love you, I think.
And to Love Again... by BellaReneeBlue, literature
Literature
And to Love Again...
"And to love again,"
She said as her heart strained against the reigns,
Tugging as if it had been set a fire
"Would set the untamed free,"
She said as the reigns ripped from her hands
and a tear fell from her eye.
"And it would burst forth,"
She whispered, as it tore away,
and headed for the sky.
"So violently as to jolt the steadiness it left behind"
She cried heavily as it flew amongst the clouds
So unaware of what it had done.
"Never realizing how the steady ground broke"
She sighed as she put a hand to her head
And looked down on the cracks forming in the ground.
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Favourite Visual Artist
Hokusai
Favourite Movies
The Cat Returns, and most Miyazaki films.
Favourite TV Shows
K-Dramas
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Tchaikovsky and Nobuo Uematsu
Favourite Books
Too Haaaard D:
Favourite Writers
Ken Akamatsu And CLAMP
Favourite Games
Skyrim, DragonAge, Starbound, AoE3, The list is extensive.
So from my last journal here, Life has changed significantly again.
I now moved back to Bellingham, Washington! Living on my own was quite a journey, but not a feasible one in the big city of Seattle running solo.
I'm going to try to start posting again at some point, possibly making some new attempts at different writing ideas.
We'll see!~
-♥Rosen
So much in my life has changed... and is beginning to change again.
Well, I now live in Seattle, Washington.
I have my first job as, would you believe it, a Starbucks Barista. Of Course. .-.
I'm getting ready to undertake the first step into LIVING ON MY OWN D:
Dundundunnnnn~
Needless to say,
Im terrified,
please, do leave all the advice you can in my comments.
I need it.
Bad.
On another note, Work is actually giving me hours, which is actually giving me money...
Money that I can't spend D:
I've returned to venting my frustrations into writings.
I hope someone enjoys them xD
And Thank You, to those that do.
~Bella.
Well, see now? I've actually been writing and posting! Starting the New Year off right :)
So I was thinking, I need to write some resolutions. I have a few ideas, like:
1)Practice My Japanese Daily. (Somehow, Someway. Any little bit. But every day.)
2)Get at least, 20 minutes of exercise daily. Eventually work up to 1hour a day.Maybe. (I have so much trouble getting offline and moving x.x)
3)Pick my Spanish back up and begin getting down basic vocabulary.
4)Make GOOD grades this quarter and raise my GPA.(Provided I actually get to go this quarter :S Otherwise, Get back in College asap.)
5)Keep Writing! Whatever it takes!
I feel like I